-screams-

school's starting on monday!

-bleahs-

booo~~~~

okay that aside. Well, it shouldnt be a bad thing that school's going to start officially for me and that's goodbye to my carefree days ( that only lasted one week since I worked away half of my year already) . I cant imagine when everyone's going to start uni and the time to meet up literally disappear. sigh. I dont want that. =(

I really wonder what kind of people Im going to meet at this degree programme. Something tells me that its probably be more girls than guys or worse off, an all girls class. wooh. that's gonna be quite horrible if things turn bad and sour. haha. okay. I shouldnt be bothered with it, I'll just be cool and go with the flow. Besides, it shouldnt be all that bad right?

To think that I used to be pretty sociable and all that when I was younger, the present me is a big contrast to what I was then. I feel so ashamed. I used to be confident, outgoing and people wanting to be friends with me. argh.

oh well, jess's leaving for Aussie tml.
yeah, i feel sad that i've one person lesser to talk to. she's a great friend and always encouraging me. blessed to have her as my friend. pray that she's gonna be fine and have a great 3 years over at Aussie.

Another chapter of my life is just getting started. I feel 'lazy' that i have to move on. I guess its just the insecurities that's holding me back and the idea of stepping out of my comfort zone really freaks me. Im no longer that confident. maybe i need just alittle bit more of that, that i can, u know face the world of endless challenges? All those not-so-nice-friends-related-incidents shattered most of my trust and my ability to judge others. Im still on the road to recovery though, with alot to learn. Trust itself is the most sensitive issue. bleahs. complicated shit but its vital...

Was sharing with a friend that she's not alone in the game of making new friends. Its not so simple if you're shy by nature and stuffs like that. Of course, everyone or anyone in fact will somehow be concerned on how others look at them and what else, people's first impressio of them. Definitely no one wants to look bad or give a bad impression, but sometimes its just a matter of opinion that you shouldnt be so bothered with. Like I told her, " You cant change how others think of you but you can win them over with your confidence, smile and kindness." That's how people get comfortable and start getting closer. Making new friends is not easy. It is a skill that you have to constantly pick up when you meet different people in your lifetime.

My personal take on making new friends : It is a piece of art man!
tough shit. :P

oh yeah. I had a good time on thurs with Jo and her friends. They are such lovely girls which different personalities. I had fun teaching them bowling. It kinds stinks now cause im aching like shit all over. bleahs. the result of not exercising for a long time. I must say these girls are pretty good for first timers and they pretty picked up the technique. I cant say Im a good teacher but they are bright students! Im proud of them. Later, dropped by at the same bowling alley to find my colleagues. They had some bowling night and I must say, my jaw dropped at how good they were at the game! Especially, my boss. Man she's good! Intended to just hang around and head home with another colleague, in the end, got dragged in to play one round. I couldnt take it. I was really doing badly and I think i made myself a fool. its stinks! But i still had fun, seeing my colleagues, having lots of fun. The most interesting fact : Seeing Adults in their most childish moments. IT IS JUST CLASSIC MAN!

Okay. that was evil but it was classic. HAHAHA.

People that i see daily turned kids just cause of bowling. cant u imagine? ROWDY! hahahahaha. Im simply awed at the fact : the extent those people literally let their hair down. even rose, rob, wends and liling!! my gosh. speaking of liling, she's really good at bowling. Her constitency is something i will take my hat off her. fgood!

unforgetable night ended with me aching all over. bleahs.


ps. kinda a pity that he isnt there though. hmm, oei woman. stop daydreaming! okokie sorry.lol.