I wanted to post this entry on tues but the internet is screwy. oh well. here it is anyway..........
( the 'yesterdays' are references to mon when i wrote the entry..)

I've been getting the twinkles lately.

Im not sure what's all this about but its getting annoying. Yesterday, I bumped into you. Later when i went to bed, i've got nightmares of you. I cant believe im being chased around in my dream with you inside. you said something to me in the dream and argh. its been for sometime that i've been having dreams with you inside but i didnt bother until this dream that cause me to feel so intimidated again. damn. its not nice having dreams that i'm always always practically running for my dear life.

i guess i can still vividly remember that faithful friday i did my errands and you gave me the most disgusting stare together with your secretary that i was some alien from outer space. im so pissed. you looked as though you're mocking me and although i felt superior when i walked past you ( cuz you're damn short! muahahaha!). BUT THE STARE YOU GAVE WAS DAMN WHOLE LOT INTIMIDATING ENOUGH.

i cant believe i have to feel threatened cuz of some shitty dream that was triggered by bumping into you in the day.

what's all this about?

I seriously think im the one with the problem. i cant blame you cause you did nothing and it was me that reacted. damn. its that nursing-the-little-twinkle-inside.

im scared of ever seeing you again. dont rain anymore surprises on me. i dont eat that kind of shit. oh well, im leaving for good soon and besides you dont know me but i do know quite alot about you. im not your secret admirer or whatever, just blame it on the fact that i had to come in contact with your work and probably with your secretary. it was just some sort of entertainment that helped me buy time working at the firm.

i seriously cant wait.

on the other hand, there will be people i'll definitely miss but NEVER it will be YOU. you cause me so much anxiety and other shits. although you're a cutie and you earn big bucks and probably drive a big car and many other things, i just dont like you. in fact, i think im gonna dislike you even more.

HAHA!

i know my wish is the silliest at the moment. if we had the chance, we could be friends. that's not possible. you seem to be the sort that prefers to hang around people of your same level and that is definitely not my level. boo to me then.

BOOBOOBOO~