No words can fully describe what i am feeling right now. absolutely nothing.
No matter. No one can fully understand how i feel even. perhaps maybe my classmates.
they do feel the same as i do. other than that, friends elsewhere.
i doubt they can understand.

sometimes people do think they understand.
No! you dont. dont give me bullshit that you understand.
you can only imagine being in my shoes and not experiencing 1st hand yourself.
the disappointment. the shame. everything else that goes with it.
maybe you should try getting the same grades each time you really made the effort.
then maybe you will understand.
oh not. stop giving me the revelation that shouldnt neglect this and that.
you think i have a choice? NO!

perhaps i maybe anti-social or something.
look i need more time to really sit down and digest my work.
please dont think that im using that as an excuse.
i dont care what you think.honestly.
if you are a friend. dont question me about priorities.


whatever. i dont even know what i'm saying.
this is just a entry to release what's in there.
its been quite a day.