its been a hectic week. dealing with life's all sorts of 'events' and on top of that, juggling studies at the same time. tough's the word. gp was bad. so bad. pw was the better news however, i'm still unable to keep *some stuffs off my mind. SYF is coming in less than 2 weeks. i'm nervous. i wonder if after putting time and effort to perfect our piece, will we do our best? i've faith in my ensemble. =) God will give us a miracle.

kinda missed doing ministry work. serving the Lord. miss playing for worships. when am i ready to return? =/ i need to prioritise and not neglect my work. its been awful being the 'un-informed' or rather frequently 'forgotten' one. i didnt choose my life to be this way. it stinks lots. really.

i missed that closeness i have with my cell peeps. lately most of us seem to have distant and drifted apart. perhaps everyone's just busy with their own lives. plus my irregular attendance. oh well. [ Pris! dear girl! pls pls go for service.- you know what good it does to your life]

i've lots on my mind lately. i used to be sure of what i'm thinking and doing. knowing myself. however seems like i'm stumped this round. the struggle of not being able to find the ANSWER is simply intolerable. i havent found my answer yet. perhaps i should just treat it as a distraction that balances my life. it shouldnt take center-stage! =/
i need to see LIGHT soon.
however, what if things turn out expectedly to your favours, what are you going to do about it? then again. its just me, with this age-old habit of thinking too much. sheesh. that habit has to go! i dare not dream about anything. just wanting an answer to my own question.

oh wells. exams are round the corner. wish me best!