Tangled mess of emotions...
...an indescribe feeling grips me....

school's fine.just loaded with lots of uncompleted and 'freshly-baked' assignments.it seems endless to really complete every single work done.it seems to me like everything is important. oh what f**k.teachers been reminding us that mid-year's in May this time. well that only applies for the A level subjs. General Paper starts in April...20th to be exact. well i'll be counting my days till my death draws near. hmm. the motion of studying just started to work in me and slowly i'll be over-worked to the point of baldness.

i'm so scared that i'm gonna bald again with immense stress that i foresee its going to come soon. i mean balding with long hair then was something i felt super horrified. i thought i had illness or something and was going to die...

i remember telling myself to seek God and just lean on Him to carry me through this whole year. i'm just gonna stick through it cause He hasnt failed me and had been faithful. i want to receive His blessings again. =)

why should i be bothering with things not concerned with me? honestly. since i made the pact between God and myself, i shouldnt be letting it affect me. there isnt any sense holding on to any feelings. feelings will be there and only God can help me through it. besides even i feel that he's kinda like the 'best', God still thinks there's someone else better. oh wells. just gonna wait upon the Lord. that's final. no time to ponder and daydream about him. he's gonna be wiped off my mind for now.yes. besides i think he has found someone that is equally as important to him other than God and his family. oh wells. all the best to him den. =/

You are the light that's leading me to the place where I find peace, again.