Sunday, January 23, 2005
i'm so blinded by everything else. everything's just keeping me away from the truth. i seriously think that something's not right and i'm it. i cant possibly lose my stuffs cause i never had the habit of misplacing my stuffs especially school stuff. i guess i havent been myself lately. seems like this double-life i'm leading right now---i'm sick of it. losing a major portion of a history worksheet that's crucial to the revision for my test tomorrow. how nice to misplace it at the wrong time. =/
i'm just so dumb to even realise that God's been speaking to me and i'm just simply oblivious to it. i ought to get my eyes or ears examined. something's majorly wrong with me and i know it. it seems i'm like fine and stuff but everything is hidden skin deep. my spiritual walk is stagnant and i'm upset. i realised that i'm too headstrong to even cry out to God cause i felt i was ok and i didnt need him ( unless when necessary). am i taking God for granted?
Faith is all i need right now. even the show ' a walk to remember' clearly reminds me of having faith that a miracle will happen. i guess i was to dumb to even notice it.
just really glad that God's with me again. after crying so badly during service, i realised how much i loved God and needless to say need him so much. yup. =) all's great now and i want to live each day pleasing to God.
saw u today.not much improvement.seems like everything is deteriorating. seems like my effort to rebuilt the broken friendship proved nothing. i'm upset but i wouldnt say it. its too hurting as my time, mind and effort has gone to waste. i dont blame you. i dont blame anyone. guess this is it.sympathy isnt anything i want to hear. guess let God and time do the healing for both of us.
goodbye. fare-thee-well. =/
Priscilla rejoices in this foolishness. 11:06 PM