some little updates in my life

workwise:
nothing much to talk about. been trying to cramp knowledge into my head. it just switched off. oh wells. not much time left till the end of the holidays. i better cease every opportunity i have to just study if not i will be regretting so much. awww. such moments are just disgraceful. been trying to solve econs and some other stuffs. its hasnt been easy. thank God for his love and grace that i at least, did some work. its still not desirable anyway.

like what John Keating told his students in Dead Poets Society " carpe diem" that's SEIZE THE DAY!! before its too late. haha. i remember the entire quote...." carpe diem, seize the day boys. make your lives extraordinary.."

me:
hmm. thoughts struck me like what am i feeling these days. i guess its those phrases in life where you somehow feel less bothered or tied down with matters-of-the-heart. i'm definitely IN! i feel so free like a bird that's released from a cage after being caged up for a very long time. at times i'm start to feel alittle 'empty' like there isnt anyone to bug or like think off. i think i'm too silly. its the perfect chance to just LOVE GOD more and well go in deeper in love with him. using GOd to fill that empty void is simply the best gift i ever had received. When you placed God first in your life, he will blessed you richly as he wants the best for you too. when you and your partner put God first, he will bless this relationship.

as for my special one out there, been praying and will carry on praying for him. i've learnt that God tells you more when you are closer to him and definitely i want Him to speak to me and tell me whose the guy he has prepared for me. relationships and stuffs? i'm not keen to go into one right now. its not the right time as my As are coming in less than a year and i need the fullest concentration i ever had. having someone to care for you is blissful but it becomes disastrous if anything goes wrong. i wouldnt want history to repeat itself again. once is enough. at times my imaginations runs wild and i do have my little-girl-day-dreams, i wonder if i'm really convinced that the feelings are gone for good? i hope so. sometimes i wonder if i'm like waiting for him in some sense. the wait is for nothing as he doesnt have any actions or wat-so-ever. oh wells.

i enjoyed this part of my life right now! its just so carefree and its indescrible. heh.