Saturday, August 14, 2004
just had my history test today. it wasnt good. i didnt really prepared for it. honestly my entire week at school has been the worst ever since i stepped into jc. i only had no least den 10 hours of sleep calculated from tuesday night to thursday night. was rushing pw and pushing my body to the ultimate limits. i felt that i was walking around half-dead the next day at school cause i only sleep an hour plus on tuesday night. i hate PROJECT WORK!
i'm so drained. mentally, spiritually and emotionally. i need an exit from all these stuffs in my life. when will it come? i'm wished that life's a utopia but in reality its dystopia. been thinking lately. 'he' came into my mind again. i'm thankful that he's been really caring and stuffs. really glad to have a brother like him and i hope i can tell him more stuffs and that we can be closer. i'm looking forward to having opportunities to work with him in church activities and other things as such. yeah. i'm leaving everything into God's hands and i'm glad that i'm able to control how i feel and do stuffs that matters most in my life right now.
here's a song that's in french. it's one of my favourites. i remember hearing it from the movie a walk to remember. its just a very sweet movie that i'm so moved by everything. sigh. when will my 'him' be in front of me?
seulement espérer
Il y a un intérieur de chanson de moi âme c'Est le l'un que j'ai essayé d'écrire maintes et maintes foisencore je suis éveillé dans le froid infini Mais Vous me chantez maintes et maintes fois encore
Donc je pose ma tête de retour en bas Et je soulève mes mains et prie pour être seulement le vôtre je priepour être seulement le vôtre je sais que Vous Etes mon seul espoir
Me chanter la chanson des étoiles De Votre galaxie dansant et riant et riant encore Quand il se sent comme mesdrachmes sont jusqu'ici me Chante des projets que Vous avez pour moi par-dessus encore
Je Vous donne mon apathie je me tous Vous donne je veux que Votre symphonie Chantant dans tout que je suis enhaut de mes poumons je donne il soutient
J'essaie pour le bonheur au milieu de ce vide.
Priscilla rejoices in this foolishness. 6:43 PM