today's halfday at school and i'm grateful for it. piles of work waiting to be completed and revisions have yet to start. i'm so dreading the day of exam. alot of things had happened recently. i've got to admit that i dislike the way i am now. i just behave according to my mood and most of the time i make no sense, doing nonsensical stuffs. probably getting at people's nerves but that's not me. i'm not like that. why is there such drastic change? is it cause of stress? but that's a lame excuse for it.

sometimes i wished that i wouldnt do such a thing. doing things that make people irritated or whatsoever. at the end of the day i dont even like that way i reacted or act. i just hate that part of me that goes haywire whenever my mood changes. i want to change that of me if not i'm going to lose my friends if i'm not careful.

really want to apologize to those who are irritated with me. honestly i treasure my friends especially those in my class right now. i cant bear to lose them. we've all been through alot together all this few months together.

i'm thankful that there are alot of friends being there and behind me all this weeks. am grateful to them for their encouragement and faith in me. esp my cellmates who has been constantly keeping me in prayer.

sometimes i cant stand the sentimental side of me. when its time to let go. i let go but i'll be reminded of the things or rather people. i'm so trying to change that as well but i cant. its just me being myself. seems like i've a soft spot for guys i used to feel. at times the feeling just comes and i wonder if i've forgotten them. its just too much for me to handle.

once a friend said that i'm too accommodating. i have to agree with her on that. sometimes in life trying to accommodate all sorts of people may be a good thing but it comes with a price to pay if anything goes wrong.

to sum myself up: drained physically, mentally & spiritual


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