its been an eventful year in 2003. been thru ups n downs. managed to stand up tall n strong. re-sat my Os. Had a restored faith in Him which is wat i wanted so much when i backslided years back. its been painful struggling on my own n being directionless in my life. had lots of suicide thots but i managed to overcome it.

somehow 2004 isnt as smoothsailing as yet. now i'm actually back on square ONE. decided not to be pple-conscious but in the end i did something which i dont wan to do anymore. asking pple whether i'm irritating. tat's the ultimate for me. now i'm pierced in my heart cuz i've deceived myself again. at the empower u motivational seminar. had tis board-breaking session n i broke the board. the board had all my bad stuff written on it n one of it was being pple-conscious n being tied down by emotions again. yet i've let myself down. ok mayb i been tinking too much according to some pple. i agree. its better i keep myself occupied with good thoughts not bad ones. besides it's juz the start rite?

silin's back. so glad. had a fun 31st with her n also last sunday. went for movie together. haha a small talk with my cous on my way back. he asks how's things with vinc. i didnt noe why he asked but i said nothing much juz frens. he den asked u sure u ok abt it? i said yea. there's nothing in the first place. honestly i'm really ok abt everything only juz the occasional erm hiccups of weird feelins when i tink too much. Ha. i tink one of my new year's resolutions is not to be pple-conscious n be tied down by my emotions!

ya. going to change tat part of me. also to harden my heart. its the best against feeling for anyone. meanwhile i'm keeping things low-lying. dont wan to spurn a big mess.